What scares me about my calling…
I’m in a really cool stage in my life, a stage that scares me in so many ways, a stage that creates insecurities, a stage that will bring completeness to a big part of my calling, a stage that we all must face eventually, a stage that I am running at full fledge. The stage in my life I am speaking of is “the passing of the baton”. When I first started here at the HT 2.5 years ago there was two statements that was and is the backbone of what I exist here to do. ” Love people more than they have ever been loved” and “give opportunity to those gifted and called.”
For the first time 180remix is about to have a massive worship team tryout. As of right now we have over 35 students signed up. I just got chills when I wrote that number. What a sweet thing to be a part of, that 35 students would deem it cool enough to come to a tryout. Worship is becoming a relevant part of our students life’s @ HT. There are about 20 students who have signed up to tryout at worship vox or worship leaders. HOLY COW! I am so floored right now. We are doing it. Our God is getting the praise He deserves.
The next generation of worshipers and worship leaders is going to fly past every achievement I have ever met, they are going to view things through a much more creative eye than I ever have, they are going to go places I am still hoping to go. I am no longer just a worship leader but now a discipler of worshipers.
The scary part about all this, is not what you may think. I am not worried about getting replaced because eventually I won’t be cool anymore, that will be awhile I hope. I am not worried about getting musically out-performed because that happens every week. I am not scared about the next generation dropping the ball because I can see the eagerness and pure passion in their eyes. The scary part about this is God has called me to be a maker of disciples, He has called me to train, He has called me to spiritually parent worship in this house and I am completely overwhelmed. I can not do this, I am not capable, and definetely not trained to do this……but I know I am called.
It is a good thing to be overwhelmed. It was once said, “Any goal you can reach on your own measure was not God’s.”
God grant me the ability, passion, perseverance, focus, patience, and Spirit to do this. To train up the next generation. Let me be big enough to continue to be trained and groomed by You and those You’ve chosen to speak into my life. God this is Your calling, Your ministry, Your church…..use me as You wish.
